1.                        Grand Mother . 

Dedication , selfless,and overly caring is she that i cannot stop myself from worrying about her health.
What it would be my life i cannot stop from thinking if the God finds her too good to be in this Earth .The inevitable death knocks on the door of every one -that is not a new fact  to any person .but accepting it as a fact will be the hardest thing  if it will be for my loved ones . I will never be able to do so and not at all in the case of my grand mother.
It is not that my grandmother has died but to see her slowly aging feels my heart with immense pain. If only i could  stop my grand mother from aging. I am from a family where both the parents is a very dedicated hardworking business people. So my parents had to go to work from 9 am and would be back only around 8:30 pm ( i am not blaming them . They always cared for us ). So it was basically my grandmother who was there present in the house . Making sure i get the best care and love.Till now she make sure that she does everything for me all the time . She did everything for me .  I am now 23 years old and she is 77 years old.Even now she make sure that she cook my food and washes my cloths(without my notice since i do not allow ).
She is aging day by day and i cant stop from worrying about her health . I love her so much and i have not been able to do anything for her. It is an immensely painful to know that someone you love so dearly is aging day by day . 

 Shari Pam Wangchuk.!
 

Shari Pam Wangchuk, you are the reason for my existence.The very time you leave out of my life.I am nothing but a live less corpse.

What it would be I assume if it was not  for you to come into my life? The meanings of unconditional love would always have deserted me,The delusion of   life on  the world would have engulfed me.I would have been cynical about any one in my vicinity to even talk to, let alone sharing my deepest fears and secrets,If it was not for you to come my way and brighten my life with your eternal love! 

Epitomizing our love in to these words is I earnestly try.As my heart’s brim of your love has reached and is dripping out.My vocabulary runs out for words to describe the love and care endeavored upon me.Still than trying to accomplish it in words would I always try.For I want to keep it eternal.

I try and try to scratch and scan the last bit of my vocabulary to lay in lines your love and care to me.But I am no, Keats or cupid in reality and describing you in lines, as usual run me in vain.In pain would cupid and Keats also be -describing your love to me.

Inevitably hard it would be for it is divine –our love.

date: 27/10/12.

mode: very sad.

Venue: my room. 

Reason: i hurt her feelings again(it is as if i have learned the art of hurting her feelings). I wish i could never make her feel sad. 

THE ENEMY OF THE PEOPLE.( BY HENRI K  IBSEN)

The enemy of the people . It is  a story of a middle class doctor who gallantly put up to the resistance of all his town's people and his own brother .For the truth and facts of scientific research . 

Doctor stockman  is a very popular physician and well know figure of a small coastal town of Norway. He is also the medical officer of the bath - a spa or hot spring sort of a  thing which is said to have a great medical benefits .which is also the main source of income for the town's people. It was a project initiated by himself and his brother ,the mayor of the town .He is sure that the project will uplift the town's economy as many tourist would  flourish in for the treatment purpose . Both himself and all the town's people has invested a lot of money and attentions to it . So all are very much excited and anxious of the bath .

He discovers  that the source of the water for the bath is seriously contaminated by  tannery industries waste .which was dumped in millia-a small stream  situated nearby the source of water for bath. So he sends the letter from the institution to his brother Peter Stockman .With it he also sends a proposed plan which would come to the town at a considerable cost .

His brother finds the report from his side rather a small issue which is only pulled and made to seem big by his brother . He suggest his brother to ignore the report of contamination in the water source as 1/the cost of repairing would be very high and 2/ the people would come to know that the government has not researched well before coming up with a huge project. 

But doctor stockman refuses to give in to his brother's persuasion of ignoring the report .He bents on taking the matter in his own hands and so plans to give it to the famous newspaper of his town -the daily heralded . Every one from the newspaper - editor,Mr Hovstad . His assistant Mr Billing .The publisher ,Mr Alaskans ,think that the report is a serious issue and assures him their support.

To his surprise his brother with the news paper agency who ,a day back was so passionate about it, betrays him .They refuses to print the report . So doctor stockman plans to tell people of his town himself and calls all of them in Captain Horster house . All the people who are very much anxious of the bath ,finds the report absurd and objects his report . Unable to stand the ignorance of the people ,he shows his agitation to the people by shouting at them .

It ends by Mr Stockman planing to fight for his innocence, to the whole community who now abhors him and wants to hurt him  and his family members . 

Date: 25/10/12
Mode: gloomy
Reason: is in my course . 

Hiroshima(poem by Agyeya)

It is a poem written by a major Hindi poet ,novelist ,critic and journalist .Who writes under the pen name Agyeya . who's real name is S.H Vastyayan. 

This  poem as the name suggest - is written after the grievous incident of  Hiroshima bombing by Allied forces of USA in an attempt to end the second world war , in August 6,1945.

The poet explains vividly and brings out a clear picture of what has happened to that fateful day. How the whole of city of Hiroshima .  which was beaming with life was reduced to barren , desolated and deserted land Within a split of second. 

He begins with a very symbolic picture of a sun rising form the East as usual in that  fateful day and continues with a comparison of the sun with the bomb.Like the sun tearing open the horizon and greeting people , the bomb tore open the Earth and greeted the people with death .                                                               

People who were going about doing  their normal chores was awestruck and thrown here and there in all direction .The bomb hit directly at the center of the city and devastated the city .The giant cloud of smoke whirling after the blast engulfed everything on it's way .Like as if the death was driving in a dark colored car and spreading chaos and engulfing every trace of life on it's way.

The aftermath of the bomb was immense . It was as if the sun shone for sometime and annihilated everything within it's rays reach . 

In the last lines the poet conveys a message that what ever the men themselves has created has landed themselves into dust .The misuse of the advancement in science and technology as a use of destructive weapon will never bring about a great and wonderful change to the world . Instead it will erase the very existence of  human beings. 

 He says that  landscape of Hiroshima would always be an epitome of men destruction power . 

 summary: Tandin Wangchuk. 

Time : 8:10 pm . 

Venue : my room .

Mode: tired .  

Reason: Has to ! it is in my course . 15 marks .  

For you, with my only resentment.

Anger, frustration, hopelessness is all that is what am drenched in

Going back to the past have not been able to do by men

This is my real resentment!

Forget it you say with such an ease

Trying to do it -I tried, but all in vain

How should I, Is my real question.

What is done is done you can’t bring it back -they say

Competent becomes a lump in your throat

To one who has to experience thee?

When it visits in your mind all the time and makes it its home,

And your heart is pierced by it every time it visits you,

The inevitable and unfathomable question of –

Why I can’t change past moments and turn it good,

Will always adorn your mind.

Time: 12 pm 
Date: 20/10/12
Mode: lazy(just finished eating dinner)
Reason:blank (you all can assume whatever you may)

Man ! i am never going to be able to learn her language . 

I know in and out about you , i can blindly accept you .All those things you say  before you start to date a girl seriously is completely not true because you can only guess how many compromises you have to make after you have  plunged into serious relationship . If i set an example . If you reply to them you are not listening to them .If you listen to them attentively and not speak anything  .You are confronted with the question -why don't you  listen to me /what are you thinking . Followed by grumpy attitude the whole time afterwards if you cannot answer this utterly surprising question. Here is the cool thing -even if you have managed to scratch last bit of Witt out of your  brain and answer it,you can never come with an answer which can award you a nice hug or an appreciative kiss on your check.Even Eliensten  could not -i am sure . That is why he has 2 wife(my assumption , don't let your imagination go wild . It is scary sometimes.)

Though  we have to make lots of compromises  in our relationship We never get tried of each other .There have not been a second which has passed by without thinking of her .My soul is her abode and fulfilling her happiness is the only thing programmed to my brain 

BTW - I will always be in awe for her ability to make me feel guilty ALL THE TIME . 

Time :2.30 ist.

Venue : my room .

Mood : tried .

Date: 19/10/12

Reason:for writing : met with an argument since she thought that i do not care and love her much.